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♥ In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful. Praise be to Allah, The Cherisher and Sustainer of the worlds; most Gracious, most Merciful; Master of the Day of Judgement. Thee do we worship, and Thine aid we seek. show us the straight way, the way of those on whom Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace, those whoso (portion) is not wrath, and who go not astray. ♥

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

HATE THAT I LOVE DAMN MUCH!!!!

MY DAY WAS FULL WITH



HATE

HATRED

MAD

&

MADNESS

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Cry Till Heart Out =.=" Part 2

sedih yang teramat bila teringat ngan arwah kakak n family...
sedih sangat sampaikan aku tak dapat nak cakap apa2.
cuma air mata yang tak henti2 mengalir...

aku dah penat untuk jadi watak dalam pentas yang sangat besar dan hipokrit ni...
penat yang teramat...
aku tak sanggup nak teruskan lakonan dalam pentas ni lagi...
apa yang aku nak...
biarlah semua lakonan ni tamat di sini...
tiada lagi episod seterusnya...
sebab aku dah tak sanggup...

aku dah terlalu penat untuk teruskan lakonan aku...
aku dah penat nak hafal dialog.
dialog hipokrit yang aku perlu hafal untuk teruskan lakonan yg tersangat hipokrit.
tapi..bila aku tepikir nak tamatkan lakonan ni...
aku terpikir juga...aku dah ready ke nak masuk ke dunia sebenar di luar..?

terdiam jugak...
sebab aku memang xda persediaan langsung untuk pergi ke dunia baru tu..
aku pun xyakin samada bekalan aku cukup atau x...
n apa yg mengganggu aku skang ni..
pesan abang aku yang nak aku senangkan mama n abah dulu...
yg penting aku kena abiskan study n keja supaya semua pengorbanan abah n mama x sia2...

n yang paling penting...
aku kena tunaikan tanggungjawab aku sebagai anak untuk bawa mama n abah pegi haji..
sebab memang itu yang aku dah hajatkan sejak aku dah pandai bepikir apa yang baik n apa yang buruk...
bawa mama n abah pegi haji..
n kalau nak tunaikan hajat tu..
aku kena abiskan study n keja..
then barulah aku dapat tunaikan hajat tu..
aku betul2 harap..
study aku ni cepat2 habis...
4tahun degree d IPGKK ni macam sengsara ja aku rasa...
amik TESL la pulak...ish...bukan senang tu..hurm...
tp, dah itu yang Allah bagi untuk aku..
then aku kena terima ujian ni...
aku tahu Allah xkan bagi aku ujian ni kalau aku xmampu..
so, kalau aku dapat ujian ni..
means aku mampu untuk harung ujian ni..
insyaAllah....
aku cuma mengharapkan yang terbaik...
apa2 pun...
lebih cepat aku habiskan study, keja, bawa mama n abah pegi haji...
senangkan hidup mama n abah ... n bekalan aku dah cukup...
aku redha untuk pergi pada bila2 masa...
xkan ada kekesalan dalam diri aku sekiranya aku dapat tunaikan semua impian tu...
n kalau boleh..aku nak tunaikan haji untuk arwah kak auni..
insyaAllah..semoga Allah memberikan aku kekuatan dan kesempatan untuk melaksanakan semuanya dengan keizinan dari-NYA. insyaAllah..amin ya Allah....

♥ From "Heart"

when i read someone's post on her blog... MySpace

i can felt that my heart was melted... 
i can't help it when it touched about "LOVE" MySpace
i felt something lost in myself...

also when i saw my friends were playing games on their lappy...
i remembered of my late sister...
she loved to play games...
i felt very terrible.
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whenever i reached home...
i supposed to let her played new games on my lappy.
just wanted to entertain her.
i know she felt very lonely and bored at home.
she can't even do what she wanted to.
because she was abnormal.
she's not like the other person.
she's weak...
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but,
one thing that i adore her most was about
her courage and determination.
she stood on her own foot
she tends to do something that she wanted rather than sat doing nothing.
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this entry makes me miss her damn much...
really miss her...
kak auni, i miss u so much...
really miss u...
very miss u...
deep inside my heart...i wanted to see u again...
in front of me...
by my own eyes...
i miss u dear sis...
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i wanted to hug u
and kiss u again n again...
i wanted to see your hazel eyes again...
i wanted to see your ambitious through them...
i wanted to hear your calm voice...
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please...
i wanted to see u sis...
really..
i miss u badly...

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MOOD: VERY BAD!!! I MISS HER DAMN MUCH!!! HUARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!


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