A Trumpet Called For You

Sesungguhnya Engkau Tahu

Bahawa Hati Ini Telah Berpadu

Berhimpun Dalam Naungan Cinta-Mu

Bertemu Dalam Ketaatan

Bersatu Dalam Perjuangan

Menegakkan Syariat Dalam Kehidupan

Kuatkanlah Ikatannya

Kekalkanlah Cintanya

Tunjukilah Jalan-Jalannya

Terangilah Dengan Cahaya-Mu

Yang Tiada Pernah Padam

Ya Rabbi Bimbinglah Kami

Lapangkanlah Dada Kami

Dengan Karunia Iman

Dan Indahnya Tawakal Pada-Mu

Hidupkan Dengan Makrifat-Mu

Matikan Dalam Syahid Di Jalan-Mu

Engkaulah Pelindung Dan Pembela

Kuatkanlah Ikatannya

Kekalkanlah Cintanya

Tunjukilah Jalan-Jalannya

Terangilah Dengan Cahaya-Mu

Yang Tiada Pernah Padam

Ya Rabbi Bimbinglah Kami

Dan Yang Mempersatukan Hati Mereka (Orang-Orang Yang Beriman)Walaupun Kamu Membelanjakan Semua Kekayaan Yang Berada Di Bumi Nescaya Kamu Tidak Dapat Mempersatukan Hati Mereka Akan Tetapi Allah Telah Mempersatukan Hati Mereka Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Gagah Lagi Maha Bijaksana

Sebaik mendengar bait2 doa Rabitah, hatiku sebak.  terutamanya apabila bait (Kuatkanlah Ikatannya, Kekalkanlah Cintanya,Tunjukilah Jalan-Jalannya, Terangilah Dengan Cahaya-Mu,Yang Tiada Pernah Padam, Ya Rabbi Bimbinglah Kami) berkumandang di telingaku. sungguh, aku ingin hatiku dan hati2 mereka menjadi erat. bait2 yg menyayat hati aku apabila Lapangkanlah Dada Kami, Dengan Karunia Iman, Dan Indahnya Tawakal Pada-Mu menyusur kemudian . Ya Allah, lapangkanlah hati kami dengan kemanisan iman dan ketenangan dengan berserah padaMU Ya Allah... 


it takes time to realize, 
actually i am the one who doesn't know how to be grateful to HIM.
i forgot everything... there are people i should take good care of... 
some that i should love them more than others...
some that i should take good care of them..
what a waste!!

a few days ago,

i was attacked by "heart chopper"...

  someone that made me felt

terrible...

lost...

and  disaster...

i lost my self again.

it wasn't enough for "heart chopper" to let me gone...

the "heart chopper" wanted to destroy me

piece by piece...

i felt down.

down to the center of the Earth!!

(what a hyperbole... )


seriously,
i hate me being like  that.
seems like i don't have feeling of love and filled with hatred and prejudice...



what an awful moment...

back to the main post...

i was terrified with "feelings".

being human being that filled with feelings and thoughts

made me worst.

i'm easily distracted by the feelings...

especially when it involved the "LOVE"...

it affected me much more worst then any feelings that i felt.

i prayed to HIM to unite my heart with those people that i loved.

any second i could...

i hoped that one day

my heart would healed and being me again.

i wonder...

when shall i meet "ME" again...?

tomorrow? next week?

next month? next year?

or i'll never meet "ME" again?

lost my self would affected my life.

i never thought that i would encounter this situation again.

it was my third losing myself.

it's hard to find ME again...

only if i met ME..

or else...???

i have to create ME again...

it took a lot of time to be ME again...
very difficult to reach the level again.
i have to start all over again...


it's very exhausted!!
please, don't let me down again.
i don't care if you want to chop or hurt me again...
because i have my own words.

"i will LOVE you although you DON't"