I Love You Although You Don't

just want to be honest here...

i realized something when my best friend asked me...

"do you know that not all the people you loved will loved you as you loved them? can you accept the fact that they just like you and be with you when they are in trouble? plus, they actually never respect you as an older for them. they are using you! do you realized that?"

"yes. i do realize that."

"then... why are you still loved them?"

"because my heart told me so."

"oh crap! that's bullshit AMNI!"

"you may say what you want, but i can't force me to left them or what-so-ever."

"fine! you may do what you want to."

Nai, it's not easy to cope with your feelings. especially when it's involved the people you loved. you might hurt because of them, but you would never stop loving them. i know you're kind of cold-heart, but you still have feelings. i know that Nai. i know because you also doing the same thing with me. haha...you don't realize that, aren't you? that's why i love you so much Nai. ^ ^,

plus, i've gave them my love and it's hard to take it back unless they return it to me. i know, maybe you think i'm like "hidung xmancung pipi tersorong-sorong" but still i'll never take it from them. because i just know how to love but not to hate.

i'm afraid, if i hate someone i will deeply fall in love with him/her...and that's worse. i don't like that. someone had taught me a lesson, "let people hurt you other than you hurt them".

"Let People HURT You Other Than You HURT Them! you're moron AMNI!"

"yes, i am moron Nai."

"you!! ... grh!"

"i'll accept anything you said Nai. but, still i'll never hold back. Nai, could you please understand me. could you?"

"what! you want me to understand you? don't you think that i'm always understand you? i know you better than anyone else. you are the one who don't know yourself!"

*silent*

"no one knows us very well Nai... except HIM."

"yes. that i know. i admit it."

"so, as conclusion here Nai... I will Love them although they don't."

"okay. fine. that's your decision and i respect yours."

"thanx Nai."

"don't mention it, Amni."

" (smile) "