If You'Re Not The One....??

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

*really loooooove this song sooooooo much....can't stop sing it and it makes me feel wanna cry.....* 

am i happy being an unfaithful girl 2..?

hmm.....dengan assignment yang berlambak minta disiapkan..aku masih g sempat mau update blog ni..bukan apa....just sudah tersakit udah kepala buat assignment.suda tu..kepeningan pula mau arrange tu materials,...aduih..sandi bha..haha..eh! terspeking malay pulak..hehe..take it easy..i've got headache bha now..to much pressure in my head...wakaka....anyway, i tried to take it easy as easy as i can..wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....i am tense now actually...really in pressure...wakakaka....my plan is running over me...my financial also is running...hehehehehe.....so funny..thank God that end of the month is coming~~~ hehehe...now i can breath slowly...hehe..u guys know something...i love to chat with this person..hehe..dunno why..he always makes me feel calm although i am in bad mood...FYI,we have nothing special in relationship okey...just friend....but,at the same time...i question myself...am i being unfaithful to him...?? huhuhu..am i cruel...? me also dunno ni...but..honestly..i have no special feeling with him...hm~ am i happy being unfaithful girl...? actually,i am difficult to give love to other person...except my family.for me..when i'm ready..then i will accept a man named as my husband...my lecture also said.."why must u all have a couple now..u all have big responsibility here...you must be ready for you course..you have special option here...you must prove to other people that you all can succeed in you option..forget about this couple-couple larh..you all masih muda lagi...apa juga faedah dia tu kalau kamu couple tp hujung2 bukan kawin pun...tidak payah la kamu couple sekarang...nanti saja..." i agree with my lecture..she is right..why we must bercouple now...? we still have a long journey to go...really far away....and we still have a lot works to do..to much things to think...hm~*sigh* i also supposed to do my assignment now..i waste my time updating this blog but i still updating it..agagaga...hahaha....anyway..i really glad to know him...although we're different in religion..we can get along together...he is cute+sweet actually..really like him...^________^ hehe....really like him...^______________^

character disorder..... bla3....

character disorder.....???
what a **** of this title....i dunno what should i say in this issue...
s***** thing i think..haha..well...actually i didn't realise this thing until i came here..(IPGM Kampus Keningau)..for those people that near to me.. Norhidayu binti Rosman, Idah binti Basrin, Hasliana binti Agos, Munasriyah binti Suratman, Zela binti Zulfikar, Debra Diane Sebastian, Annette Shizu Gaban, Nerryerna Ramidi, and Patima binti Amin..i would like to apologise to all of you for being unstable friend..i also dunno why i'm acting like this..but, for sure...i'm not doing this just for fun...this is the reality...reality that i don't know it will happen to me...reality that i never realise it has been stayed in my soul for a long time...i'm so sorry for what i've done to you all....i am so sorry for treat you guys badly....so sorry...sometimes i'll become a hypocrite person when my character is changed..and the changes will make me in unstable condition...i dunno why is this happened to me..but i hope that i will get the solution for this problem.. FYI, when i'm in this condition.. i like to be alone rather than be with you guys....i'm afraid if i'm with you while this changes take place...you guys will get something that you shouldn't get from me...i'm afraid if it is happened..unfortunately, it's already happened and i'm regret of that...so sorry for everything....what i want you all to know are...i am a difficult person to understand of..i am difficult to be predict..and it is hard to get closer with me...only when you guys can accept me as i am..then you will found the real Nurul Amni binti Isnirur....who is she...?? and how bad or good is she as a friend...?? i have to be frank with all of you...so far, there is no one that could understand me better..no one...no one in my life..if there is..the person is just right in time with the situation i have had faced through...that is the truth..sorry to say but this is the fact. i am UNPREDICTABLE person....but, you all don't have to worry because although i'm in different character..i still have my mind inside...and i will also do the same thing to you all...i will try my best to understand your behavior and your attitude...i will try my best to know how's you guys feel......don't worry of that...i hope that we will get closer in the next moments...hope so....last but not least...i love you guys so much...and so sorry for everything....i am really sorry....

Hari Pertama,,,,,,,,,,

adoiii.....huhuhu...i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sleepy..totally i'm damn wanna to sleep.........my eyes are very heavy...huhu...i'm afraid can't afford this..huhu....i'm going to sleeepppppppppppppppppppppp.............somebody help me.....i'm going to down..........arghhhhh!!!! i need to take a nap.....help me please.......

am i happy being an unfaithful girl..?

guess what....today(06/08/2010) i have a date with someone...haha..so happy bekoz this is our first tyme seeing each other n hang out together...wahaha...so happy ever after..wahaha..no la..actually im getting started to like and love more than one person..huhu..am i a bad girl..? huhu...some one please help me....*now im start miss my sis..*
owh come on amni....he is waiting for u..please don't hurt him...he is innocent..he is not deserve to hurt...u shouldn't do that..*i also dunno what the hell am i talking...* this is not the necessary for this time...my study is my priority....i supposed not to think or involve with this "thing" yet..hmm..anyway...if he still want to wait for me...i hope that he take a good reason to do that...btw, he also have a long journey in his life....neither i nor him...we still have much time to think of our relationship....anyway...the best conclusion that i have had made is...i will never involve with anything that related with any relationship unless i'm ready to go through on that.

When I Realise....

i was thinking just now...being an important person is not easy as i thought..
although i'm just a small one in JPP Organization,but the responsibility is heavy rather than managing a camp-proposal..*deep sigh*
i never know how could i would be here...being a normal person is hard as being an important person....i don't know which one should i be..but it doesn't mean that i don't want to be "something"..just.....*sigh again*
nothing i want to say in this extremely bad mood....come on,i need "something" to cheer me up..i need "something" to boast me up.....i don't wanna be like this...i hate this...i hate this feeling...i wanna act like a matured girl...OH MY GOD!!!
AMNI, LISTEN CAREFULLY....YOU DON'T NEED TO BE LIKE THIS...YOU CAN DO SOMETHING ELSE THAN JUST SITTING IN FRONT OF YOUR LAPPY.. COME ON...DO SOMETHING.JUST "HANG OUT" TO FIELD IF YOU WANT TO DO SO...
i don't like you acting like this....you still young to think about this rubbish things..come on..find some place and just relax your mind and do something you want..
GOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Terkenang Seketika....

tyme kawan ak sedang membentang..sempat g ak update blog ak ni..hihi..sorry guys..ur presentation to much text..pening pala ak...i take dis tyme to express my splendour during i live here..(IPG)
actly,ak da malas mau amik pusing sal hal ni..tp,certain tyme ak nda dpt sabar..ntahla..small matter sia ni..tp....*sigh*..bialah...ap yg ak mau tulis kat sini pun teda kena mengena ngan ap yg 'benda' tu buat pun...juz wan to say that i'm tired of suck things here..no one knows what actly i mean...HAHA....so funny..
actly there is nothing wrong wit dis IP..nothing.juz the people..since ak stay sini,inila satu2ny tmpt asing yg ak suka.bes stay sini..sejuk..pg2 bekabus..bes gila ni..haha...bes..lau ble ak mau stay sini jak..hahah...
oya..ak baru teingat..ad sorang pensyarah bha ni...suka betul ak tinguk dia...comel betul...macam teletubbies ni..hahahhahaha...kala dia mengajar kn..kompom ak ketawa..lawak...hahah...bahagiala lau dalam kls dia ni..hihih...ceh..cam len jak..haha..iya..onestly la..ak suka btl ngan dia...haha..suka jak k..bukan cintun..hihi...
td ak mau return speaker n cd yg dia pinjamkn aritu...tp dia teda..then aku tejumpa dia d dpan blok pentadbiran..hihi..comel ni...hahahah..mau jak ak ketawa tyme tu..tp bla tinguk banyak pensyarah sana nda jd trus...hahah....tyme tu kn..dia jual sumtink ni..cam teh la...teh hijau ka nda silap..hihi..siap mempromote lg dia..hihi...serius ni..ak pun relek jela..sambil2 tinguk dia mempromote..hii...then ak jalan ma dia p pejabat dia..haha...lucu2..cam apa jak ak tyme tu..senyum2 jak ni..hahha..ntahla pa dia pikir tyme tu..
tyme d pjbt dia la banyak ni kami cakap..haha...kamicita sal skola dia dulu..pengetua skola dia dulu..sampaila dia kena transfer p keningau ni..hihi..tyme tu ak mau kua uda..tp kn..sir Lucas tiba2 ada d luar ni..hahah..tyme tu ak kua dr pjbt dia sambil ketawa2....hihi...len sir Lucas tinguk ak..hahahhah
then sir lucas tnya,
"haaaaa.....are u want to flirt Mr. Joseph o Mr. Joseph Flirting u..?"
hahahhahahah...merah muka kami dua..hahahah......but then..sir Lucas cakap..
"no larh...i'm just joking...hihi"
then dia pun masuk pjbt tu..hihi...pas tu dorg cakap2 la dlaam tu...sir Joseph yg ak dengar trus story sal ap yg jd dlm pejabat tu td....hahahhahahahha
lucu o ak rasa...hahahha...cam lawak ni...merah lagi tu muka kami dua...hihihihi....
mesti org ingat ak ad affair ngan dia..hihihihihi...lawak2...hahahah...
so far..munk sir joseph n sir lucas la yg paling spoting....slen sir john..hihihihi
yg ladies ni ak blm jumpa lg..hahahah....amni2..tulunlah..haha..sabar2...hahah...
memunk lucu bha ak rasa..hahahah........nda puas ak mau ktwa kalau kenang balik benda tu..hahahahh..tp,aku harap sangat nanti...ak ble jd cam dorg....suma student suka dorg..huhu...lawak n dalam diam tegas...hihihi,,...
I LOVE U TELETUBBIES....<3 <3 <3