Refresh The Scar Again

All thru my younger years
I've learnt a thing or two
Never play with hearts you care
Lest they break because of you
Some of us really believe
The rules they don't apply
And every now and then
Some where always makes you cry

Now you can refuse to answer all my calls
And you can pretend to know nothing at all
Maybe you'll smile and say you'll take the chance
To see me now and then
Whatever you do
Please don't put my heart on hold again

Don't be too naive to think
I'll always stay the same
You're gonna have to let me know
If you're still in the game
We've been thru it all before
And lately I've seen change
But baby don't you keep me out
Cos one day you'll be the one without

I need to know just where you stand
Don't want to live life without a plan
Cos I need to know that I can count on the one I love

Now you can refuse to answer all my calls
And you can pretend to know nothing at all
Maybe you'll smile and say you'll take the chance
To see me now and then
Whatever you do
Please don't put my heart on hold again

i wrote this entry just for myself.none of u will truly understand what i meant here, except for those who already knew me.no hurt feeling if u're not understand me well although we've been friends since a long time ago.no offence, be cool.one thing i realize again today, since i've a long conversation with kura2's sista again...all these stuff makes me think again...oh my! long conversation had taught me something that i've forgot before...DO NOT PLAY WITH FEELING!! gerh! recall for something that u've forgot will make ur heart sick...sick of damn thing.although u're already forgot them, but the scar is still there.right in ur heart...they crash u once u remember of it again.do u know tat wen u hurt sum1 tat loves u 4 the way u r..u'll never realize how deep they would suffer just because of u..bloody hell if u say u didn't meant to.trust me...i did it before..and i take the regret for the whole of my life...its already happened n i kept it deep inside my heart.no one should know it,tats my history of life..but, sumtymes u should share it wit sum1 to relive ur feeling..i did! and, the worst thing is...the scar will refresh in ur heart's bath..gerh!! i wan to terminate the scar but i couldn't..i suffered by having the scar..the scar makes remind me of the black tragedy. it's hurt. damn hurt! i talk about it n it crash my heart again n again as my tears will fall again n again...i'm sick talking of this but i couldn't hold my self...the history always haunting me as i live n i can't run from it...i'm afraid i did the history again...i've felt it before n i don't think tat i can hold the burden again...my tears falling again, again, again, n again...sumtymes i wanna run as far i could. i wana go away from my history..GO AWAY!!! ergh!!! how stupid i am remember of this! no one would understand me..NO ONE!! i can't take this again.i should stop! stop from thinking of it.stop from talking about it.it makes me sick..really sick!! as reminder again...i wrote this entry just for myself...no offence.its ur own responsibility if u think i wrote this because of u.i've already mention that I WROTE THIS ENTRY JUST FOR MYSELF.